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D/s and spirituality
May. 20th, 2010 12:55 pmThis is a rather lengthy topic but one that I'm very passionate about as it is directly related to my soul. I know that people find religion and spirituality in many different places, and I'm not alone in finding mine through the D/s lifestyle. Perhaps though that's not entirely correct since I didn't find one before the other, but rather D/s and my spirituality are two parts of my soul that work together to create the true me.
I recently had the privilege of having a psychic reading done by a very wonderful woman. She called me a lightworker and said that I didn't even look like a real person to her because I was surrounded by so much sparkling, green, heart energy that I looked more like some spiritual being existing solely of light. I mention that because it has taken me many years to get to this point with my spirituality. I have spent twenty years probing the corners of my mind so that I would fully know myself: my likes and dislikes, what my triggers are, and possibly most importantly why I react the way that I do. These are not only good to know for myself, but one day I hope to give myself fully to a Mistress, and She will want to know all of these things about me.
There is a state of awareness, of existence, that I hope to achieve, a state of "Light Being". This will happen when I can exist within the light that is me (also the God/Goddess part that is connected to the Divine), and I believe this will happen through submission, when I can fully and truly give all of myself to another person and exist selflessly. I am prepared to let go of everything. I am prepared to forgive and release all. The foundation of my submission is strong. But I know that when I let go of everything, I'll need a strong Mistress who can help me along the way.
Submission is a gift. And for me, it's not just something that I do because it makes me feel good. It is giving someone the most precious part of me, the spiritual part, the God part of me. It is sharing that with another being. How many people in this life aren't afraid to discover that God part of themselves (it exists inside us all ~ we all have Life Energy) and grasp it with confidence? Not many. How many will have the opportunity to share that with someone special? Even fewer. Once you realize that there is nothing you must do except know yourself, that it's all about what you no longer need to do, the possibilities are endless!
When I serve, my mind enters an alternate state that is similar to a hypnotic trance. All concious thought disappears, except what is needed to complete the task at hand. My mind stills and seems to float on wave after soft wave of spiritual, emotional bliss. This is when I am centered and fully connected to my slave self. Most Dominants and submissives look at the lifestyle as an excuse to have kinky sex and dress in leather on the weekends. This is not the case for me. The D/s lifestyle is part of who I am, in and out of the bedroom. But...it's what happens outside the bedroom that really sets the parameters for a healthy, long-term relationship. To me, service not only includes the intimate tasks such as massage, bathing the Mistress, or helping Her dress, but the every day household chores as well. How many people can say that folding laundry puts them in a state of bliss? *smiles* Definitely not many, even among those who claim to be service submissives. When I'm doing a task that I know will make my Dominant's life easier, whether it be a task I enjoy or one that I really dislike, I am happy.
I know that people express their spirituality in different ways, and one of the things that is so appealing about the D/s lifestyle is that anything goes. But this is what works for me. When I submit, when I serve, I'm touching the part of myself that is linked to the Divine. I am my true self, and I like it. *smiles*
I recently had the privilege of having a psychic reading done by a very wonderful woman. She called me a lightworker and said that I didn't even look like a real person to her because I was surrounded by so much sparkling, green, heart energy that I looked more like some spiritual being existing solely of light. I mention that because it has taken me many years to get to this point with my spirituality. I have spent twenty years probing the corners of my mind so that I would fully know myself: my likes and dislikes, what my triggers are, and possibly most importantly why I react the way that I do. These are not only good to know for myself, but one day I hope to give myself fully to a Mistress, and She will want to know all of these things about me.
There is a state of awareness, of existence, that I hope to achieve, a state of "Light Being". This will happen when I can exist within the light that is me (also the God/Goddess part that is connected to the Divine), and I believe this will happen through submission, when I can fully and truly give all of myself to another person and exist selflessly. I am prepared to let go of everything. I am prepared to forgive and release all. The foundation of my submission is strong. But I know that when I let go of everything, I'll need a strong Mistress who can help me along the way.
Submission is a gift. And for me, it's not just something that I do because it makes me feel good. It is giving someone the most precious part of me, the spiritual part, the God part of me. It is sharing that with another being. How many people in this life aren't afraid to discover that God part of themselves (it exists inside us all ~ we all have Life Energy) and grasp it with confidence? Not many. How many will have the opportunity to share that with someone special? Even fewer. Once you realize that there is nothing you must do except know yourself, that it's all about what you no longer need to do, the possibilities are endless!
When I serve, my mind enters an alternate state that is similar to a hypnotic trance. All concious thought disappears, except what is needed to complete the task at hand. My mind stills and seems to float on wave after soft wave of spiritual, emotional bliss. This is when I am centered and fully connected to my slave self. Most Dominants and submissives look at the lifestyle as an excuse to have kinky sex and dress in leather on the weekends. This is not the case for me. The D/s lifestyle is part of who I am, in and out of the bedroom. But...it's what happens outside the bedroom that really sets the parameters for a healthy, long-term relationship. To me, service not only includes the intimate tasks such as massage, bathing the Mistress, or helping Her dress, but the every day household chores as well. How many people can say that folding laundry puts them in a state of bliss? *smiles* Definitely not many, even among those who claim to be service submissives. When I'm doing a task that I know will make my Dominant's life easier, whether it be a task I enjoy or one that I really dislike, I am happy.
I know that people express their spirituality in different ways, and one of the things that is so appealing about the D/s lifestyle is that anything goes. But this is what works for me. When I submit, when I serve, I'm touching the part of myself that is linked to the Divine. I am my true self, and I like it. *smiles*
